My boyfriend's friend's grandfather passed away this weekend. we went out and got him a card. after i wrote in the card i basically shut down. i was so sad about missing my grandpa that my body couldn't handle it and i got sleepy. so sleepy i pretty much fell asleep while i was driving. then after i got back and spilled my milkshake on my feet as i was trying to carry armloads of stuff back in to my dorm i had a panic attack. i can't do this. it is too much. i need to sleep. i washed my feet off, wasn't good enough, showered, wasn't good enough. my feet wont stop feeling sticky. i can't do this. maybe it is this. maybe it is something else. maybe it is everything. who wants to date someone with ocd. who wants to date someone so unstable..cant do this..sticky toes..dirty..